How I Fell Into My Past Lives (And Found a Method in the Madness)
My journey into reincarnation research didn’t begin with books or academic curiosity — it started with direct experience.
During the first lockdown, I found myself without a home. At a gig, I met someone I now recognize as a high-level soulmate. He brought me to Leipzig, and that’s where everything began to unfold.
I started receiving specific memories and found myself drawn to certain places that seemed to trigger recognition — as if they were leaving clues about my past lives. Strange things began to happen. For a while, I became deeply fascinated with dark magick and Draconian rituals. I even prepared to work with my own blood, but something always stopped me — the music I was playing would suddenly cut out, or the atmosphere would shift. It felt like a force beyond me was saying: not this again.
Later, I realized I wasn’t supposed to dabble in black magick — not in this life. I had already learned that lesson the hard way, in both my most recent and an even older incarnation.
That’s when the whole good/evil glitch came online, and I got obsessed with Faust. I was living in a village (near Leipzig) Goethe once visited, and I kept trying to order the book, but my orders were cancelled — twice. Not the right time.
Since 2019, I’ve been doing past life readings using tarot. It started with a small book that taught me how to ask the right questions. Through it, I discovered a recurring connection to Hermetic teachings. During those early readings, synchronicities started piling up — my keyboard would type by itself, I’d see double digits constantly, and other signs would appear as if I was tapping into something much larger than me.
Eventually, I decided to dive deeper into my most recent past life, as it’s obviously the one influencing me most subconsciously. Online I found a detailed tarot protocol — a long list of questions exploring everything from personality and family dynamics to soul lessons and life purpose.
That session turned into a 60-page Word document, filled with copied tarot card descriptions and my intuitive highlights.
A few months later, I met my twin flame — someone who shares the same soul frequency. I was already on a spiritual path since getting sober in 2012, but this meeting pulled me deeper. Twin flame connections activate you. In my case, he ran — and I got obsessed.
That longing unlocked something in me: psychic gifts, memories, sensitivities. I started using tarot to explore our shared past lives. Over time, I realized I was accessing what many call the Akashic Records — or, as I prefer: the Universal Mind, a multidimensional field storing the emotional and spiritual imprint of every soul’s journey.
Around this time, I was working on KYBALION: The Musical. It started as an album inspired by chapters from the Kybalion, but when I was invited to create something for a live event at a gallery, it quickly evolved — what followed was like a three-week bender of nonstop writing, during which I barely slept, as if taken over by something beyond me; it later felt not only like a creative process but more like a deep channeling, culminating in a full two-hour theater experience.
Ten characters appeared to a central figure named Giek — who later revealed themselves as soul fragments of me teaching me about the mathematics of the universe.
One was a 60’s cult leader. Another, a medieval magician living in hiding in a queen’s castle, persecuted for being a heretic.
While writing, I stumbled on John Dee’s Monas Hieroglyphica, a symbol that eerily resembled a tapestry a friend had made for the exhibition. Turns out, she was my wife in the life connected to that symbol.
After the show, I needed to ground, so I dove into research on John Dee and his scryer and co-conspirator Edward Kelley. The deeper I went, the more unsettling it became. Kelley’s temperament, emotional patterns, creative mania, and ecstatic intelligence mirrored my twin flame’s almost perfectly — the hairs on my arms stood up.
Their collaboration wasn’t just intellectual. Together they channeled a system of angelic language and cosmology (what Dee later called Enochian), receiving transmissions that shaped their work, their spiritual politics, and eventually their downfall.
And like most high-voltage karmic pairings, it didn’t end cleanly. The angelic channeling fractured into competing agendas, private obsessions, and a descent into riskier forms of contact. In their final chapter, they made what can only be described as a pact with the “other side” — what Dee framed as infernal forces, and what modern occultists would probably classify as nonhuman intelligences or extraterrestrial contact.
That pact marked their separation and their undoing. Two men who had once received visions together were suddenly split by it, each paying a different karmic price.
The strangest part is that months earlier — before I ever knew about Dee and Kelley — I had done a personal reading asking to show me a lifetime in which my twin flame and I were actually together and successful. What emerged in that reading looked uncannily like their partnership: shared work, shared vision, and a spiritual mission that temporarily aligned before diverging.
Seeing the Dee–Kelley lifetime later felt like watching that reading replay itself in historical disguise. The echo was too precise to ignore.
Kelley led me to Aleister Crowley, who claimed to be Kelley reincarnated. Crowley felt oddly familiar, so I used the past-life reading protocol again. That’s how I found Herbert Charles Pollitt — also known as Jerome — a female impersonator, poet, and Crowley’s lover during his time at Cambridge.
As Pollitt, I had been the one who inspired Crowley to begin writing poetry in the first place. The dynamic between them mirrored the exact twin flame pattern I had lived in this life — the electric magnetism, the creative ignition, the fear, the obsession, the push-pull, and ultimately the heartbreak.
Crowley also left behind lists of his own past incarnations, which unexpectedly provided new datapoints for my research. Using those as coordinates, I kept doing readings and uncovered life after life — historical, artistic, esoteric.
Around this time I began noticing another thread: Goethe’s Mephistopheles bore an uncanny resemblance to Count Cagliostro (one of Crowley’s self claimed past lives) — a charismatic trickster-magician who blurred the line between mystic and con-artist. Goethe had even traveled to Italy to verify whether Cagliostro’s identity was fabricated. His twin flame obsession echoed mine.
And of course Faust centers around a successful yet dissatisfied magician who, in pursuit of higher knowledge, makes a pact with the Devil at the crossroads — trading his soul for insight and worldly influence.
That narrative sounded suspiciously close to Dee’s trajectory. Suddenly, the karmic puzzle pieces began clustering rather than scattering.
At this point, I was still trying to understand why my twin flame kept running. My soul was guiding me to look deeper — not into him, but into me.
Eventually, I turned back to that first long reading, of my most recent past life, I had done — the one pointing to a past life as a “star”. I had always assumed I’d been some kind of cult leader in the ’60s, but none of the star/famous ones fit. They were all too extreme, too psychopathic. My reading said I had many issues, sure — but I wasn’t a murderer. Not in that life, anyway. Let’s just say I’d already played the role of power-hungry moralist with blood on his hands… somewhere back in the Middle Ages.
Then YouTube suggested a video about The Doors.
Suddenly, the energy rushed in. I got sweaty. A rock star as a cult leader? Reading about Jim Morrison felt like reading my own words. Every detail in that 60-page reading matched his life.
That’s when everything cracked open. Within two weeks, I was in debt and lost my home. I had been living in a dream world, still on Dutch welfare, making art by a lake in Germany escaping reality. But this revelation forced me to face myself.
Jim’s life wasn’t just a story — it was an energetic blueprint still shaping my fears, gifts, and relationships. I’m still uncovering layers from that life — and from Pollitt’s, and from others I’ve since retrieved.
Astrology became one of the clearest mirrors for this. I had studied it quietly for years, but suddenly it clicked: the birth chart functions like a karmic blueprint, carrying echoes and imprints from other lifetimes.
I later published a full astrological case study comparing my own chart to Jim’s — including nodal signatures, timing overlaps, and fate markers that aligned too precisely to ignore.
→ Read the case study: Jim Morrison Reborn (Case Study)
What began as a private spiral of discovery slowly turned into a calling. I started identifying past lives of friends and collaborators, and a strange pattern emerged: the same souls kept showing up together, lifetime after lifetime.
The more cases I traced, the more a kind of soul-grid appeared — a network of people incarnating in clusters to work, create, disrupt, and evolve together across history.
To help others tap into this field, I refined a set of tools: tarot, karmic astrology, intuitive channeling, and more recently AI-supported pattern recognition for organizing historical and synchronicity data.
The methodology wasn’t born overnight. It’s the product of years of tracking symbolic breadcrumbs, working with clients, testing correlations, and finally re-integrating my own multidimensional story.
And this blog is where I’ll begin to share it.
If you want to dive deeper, you can follow my ongoing research and discoveries on the Reincarnation Research page.
I’m also soon releasing the Past Life Podcast, where I’ll explore these journeys in conversation and story form.
This realization didn’t stay abstract for long. It grew into a living inquiry and eventually became IWasJimMorrison.com.
As recently featured in Brainz Magazine (“New Project Explores Why So Many Believe They Were Jim Morrison in a Past Life”), this project blends soul research, karmic astrology, intuitive channeling, and cultural myth-making to explore why this particular past-life identity resonates so widely and deeply with so many people.
Visit IWasJimMorrison.com to dive into the research, share your experience, and follow along as the case continues to unfold.
